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just FYI

9dpIUI / 11dpoTrigger

Well, this is my 11dptrigger test /9dpoIUI
i guess you would call them BFN .... because i cant see any lines!!
LOL ..................

7dpoIUI / 9DPOtrigger

Well, i finally tested with 3mu /with 3 hr's holding urine.
got this; So we will see has day's go on.....................

8dpotrigger & 6dpo

Well.................... have had some Green gooby cm much different from
last cycle ..... that's about all !
feeling fine temp went up this am....
so we will see 7 day's till test day!

IUI #3 done ......3 X a charm ....

Well, everything went smoolty , I liked the dr on call this time, Dr LOY... was really nice and went over hubby's sperm counts withme before hand , ( never had this relly dont in detail ) like he did....
they are ;
#3 IUI Oct 13th at 11 am
SA Pre wash 242 million ...
Put back in ( post wash) :184.4 Million
Moltility 75% ( very good dr said )
Progression...Rapid
Normal Morphology: 45% ( dr said very good also)

So, hopefully with my 2 biggggg eggs and this great sperm count , we can get our long awaited BFP!!
BABYDUST and LUCK donation are excpected !!!
Cramping a bit .... but anything for my BFP!!

If #3 works ....

Date of Ovulation: Oct-13-07
Calculated Due Date: Jul-05-08


so a firecracker baby!!! hey

IUI Sat 13th.......Wish me luck!

8 Am hubby's deposit
11:15 IUI

***** luck******** thats what we need !

CD 11 scan /BW

Cd 11 Scan ; left 24 mm Follicle,
Right 21mm Follicle and 16 Follicle
E2 level was 150 ,
Prog was 0.98..
Ovidrel tonight 8 PM and Intercourse
IUI SAT 13TH.

Cd 9

Well, i took my first shot of Follistim last night .. geesh it wasnt has bad as i have heard or read , it didnt even affect me! O ell
We go in thursday for cd 11 scan ...... to see what my ovarys are up to this time around .......

just haning out , making a pumpkin cake as we speak !YUMMY!!
later

cd4

Well, just releived a bit , just got my meds ... Ovidrel, Follistim!
And i started taking the femera last night ... yea !

O what fun ................... Well im so hoping that 3x a charm!
We go in thursday cd 11 for a follicle scan ... come on eggs grow and grow
and keep growing!!!

#3 iui/femera/follistim

Ok back from DR ...... he's so great !!

ANYWAY'S ................... im on cd 3
and this is our game plan...

We are doing 5 mg of Femera cd 3-7
Follistim 75 iu cycle day's 8-10
Return for scan cd 11 @9;30

praying and hoping !!! Third XXXX a charm!!!

#3 IUI ....coming soon

We are moving onto Injects ..... Because we want to get more agressive
Onto .. Oct 1st, 2007 Cycle #3....... We just bought a bottle of Vitamins... Nordic Naturals Omega 3.6.9
... and see what we can do different to revap this .....IUI
Britt, just called me back , we have a consut with our wonderful Dr G on Wed 1045 to discuss Injects ( fsh) she said we would still do femera and just add in the injects ... cant wait ..... ..
So, if NO cyst at 10;30 then we will see what Dr G has in store for us....
We pay out of pocket ,.... so god im hoping not so much $$.

NEG .......... A BFN !!!!!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

12dpoIUI and 14dpoTrigger

Ok, so test day is tomorrow Sept 29,2007....... WOW
I havent tested since 10dpo and it was a faint line .... very very very faint !

So, who knows ..... Im a bit nervous about testing ... I have alot going on here at home ...
With my family ...but i will be ok ....

just hoping for a BFP!!!! Please lord ... grant me my wish !
If no i will continue on this beaten path ....... until success is given!!

Well, later ........................

8dpIUI and 10DPO Trigger

Well, i have been testing out my trigger and it's just made me more GRRRR

Im going to not test no more until my test date...... this Saturday!
Im going to TRY and not test !!! Let me not say a LIE...
but i have a very urge to know rather i am or not ... and it bug me not to know.

6dpoIUI and 8dpoTrigger

Well, i took another FRER tonight at 8dpo trigger ... it seems maybe it's still in my system....dunn this is weird ... Last cycle i tested it out at 7dpot, because my IC on 8dpo was BFN stark white ....

You would think that my test would be getting lighter ,,,,, i am really confused!

O well i will test tomorrow AM with FRER or sometime during the day !

UNTIL then ............................................................................

6dpoIUI and 8DPOTRIGGER

You be the judge ..... trigger or start of BFP ?

I hate to get excted , but the equate is darker than this FMU one ....

this is my first FRER this cycle So.................................. Dh will be home tomorrow and I cant test with him around !!

I will test monday morning , OR if he leaves the house tomorrow ... I Only have FRER left ....so we will see i guess!

Im not liking the equate the lines disppear to fast...... and you cant compare unless you take a pic.

Well......................................... Until then my ff friends !!!!
IS THIS IS OR NOT ..... dunno only time will tell , but im remaining calm cool and collected !!!!!!!

6DPOIUI and 8DPO TRIGGER

So this is my equate from this morning FMU

6dpoIUI & 8dpoTrigger

It's Saturday .......ugh Dh is at work and i think it's going to rain!!

Im going to the store to get some PUMPKIN to make these
WHOOPIE COOKIES ... umm they are so good when made with
chocolate, since it's almost fall i thought i would make them with pumpkin.

then im going to make some no-bake cookies ... or im going to TRY to
get them correct , they are so hard to getjust right, not to hard not to soft....
just right ...................

later

Pisces in a Nutshell
Born: February 19 - March 20
Element: Water - emotional and intuitive
Quality: Mutable, the quality that signifies adaptability and flexibility
Symbol: Two Fishes
Lucky Day: Friday
Lucky Numbers: 2 and 6
Special Color: Turquoise
Pisces Traits: Emotional, intuitive, lazy, impractical, compassionate, over-indulgent

5dpoIUI and 7dpotrigger

Feeling ok ..... I took a equate this am just to see where my trigger was ....7dpo trigger 5dpoIUI

this is the 7;45 am and i didnt take the pic until 11;30 sorry !

Well, other than that im just ok .... me and dh have started to walk nightly around the

neighbor hood , it's so nice to relax ..... and enjoy the cool front !

4dpo & 6dpoTrigger shot

Ok, here we are 4 dpo ...... dunno what 's going in my body but i hope it's the little bean getting snuggled in for 8 months !!! I have had some mild cramping NEW from last month , ..... Im calm cool and very relaxed this cycle .... dunno why maybe im getting some help from above ... that's so could be !!!

The chinese one for the PIG that's my sign :

It's a wonderful time for family, including a new addition.

Ummmmmmmmmmmmm Im such a beleiver !!!

Success rates for a IUI /Interesting Facts about TTC

What is the success rate for IUI?A: Searching through about a dozen medical journal articles and a number of web sites resulted in a rather wide range of statistics. Basically the odds of success are reported to be just under 6% and as high as 26% per cycle. The low statistics are with one follicle, while multiple follicles resulted in as high 26% success. Another influencing factor is sperm count. Higher sperm counts increase the odds of success; however, there was little difference between success with good-average counts and those with high counts. The overall success rate seems to be between 15-20% per cycle, judging from the articles which will be abstracted below. The rate of multiple gestation pregnancies is 23-30%.

Q: How many follicles give my best chance of getting pregnant? A: According to different studies, either 3-4 follicles gives one the best chance of getting pregnant, while more follicles beyond that simply increases the risk of multiples. The U.S. study said 4 follicles, while other countries have data stating 3. The U.S. has a higher rate of multiple births, so 3 may be more likely to be the correct answer.

How long after IUI should implantation occur? A: Implantation generally takes place 5-11 days after ovulation -- so 5-11 days after a well-timed IUI.

This is how the baby’s gender is determined:
Each of the man’s sperms and each egg carry 23 chromosomes. The sperm and the egg combine at fertilization for a total of 46 chromosomes which come in 23 pairs.
The 23rd chromosome is called the “sex-chromosome”. In sperms it is either an X- or a Y-chromosome, while in the woman’s egg it is always X.

If an X-bearing sperm fertilizes the egg, the resulting 23rd pair is XX, a girl, and if a Y-bearing sperm fertilizes the egg, the result is XY, a boy.

It is therefore the sperm that decides the baby’s gender: X-bearing sperms result in girls, and Y-bearing sperms in boys.

In general, X- and Y-bearing sperms are about equally distributed in the ejaculate, so each time there is about an equal 50-50 chance for each gender.

2dpo

hoping and praying my little one is about where day 2 would be on this graph !!

2dpo 4dpotrigger

Ok ... still doing good ! Nothing much going on .... just doing laundry ....

Feeling ok , Pro supp did ok .... about 2 hrs after using it , i had some very mild burning ,

but it didnt last long, so i m going to just hang tight and use them .

later ..............................

My Horoscope ..... from different things .....

Thanks to the very positive air trine, which will benefit you in a more subtle way, you should find that you can achieve or succeed in a matter that up to now has been causing you a few headaches.


It may not be a great time to run off to Vegas, but you are running through a streak of good luck.

You could be in the middle of some big life changes, so it's important that you express all of your thoughts, feelings and ideas. It's fine, of course, to keep some of it to yourself,

I asked a pyshic and this is her answer : The odds are likely that it will happen soon.

I asked a genni: Something that you have been working on very diligently is about to pay off!

Your question:
"am i pg ?"
The Cyber Seer says:
" There's a really good chance! "

it's like haven a EASY BUTTON !!!

I think someone from above os helping me out this cycle .... Im so calm this is nothing like me ..... to be ok with the UNKNOWN !!!

It's going to be a easy 2 wks for me ...for some odd reason im ok with not testing out my trigger like i did last month , or sitting on FF every sec, i get free .... I just feel OK with it weird for me not to obsess over the 2ww

Tonight the night ..... ewwwww

O what fun ...Starting tonight .....
This cycle im going to be on Prometruim 200 mg VAG nightly for 12 night's ... then im to test the morning of 13 dpo , if NEG then STOP the Prometruim and wait for AF ..

If postive test , ( hopefully ) we will stay on the Prometruim and call for a beta ...

Today im 3dpo Trigger and 1 DPO .

1dpo & 3dptrigger

Yea ....... so the wait begans !! Im feeling so calm .... dunno it's a weird feeling this cycle , but i guess im not going to drive myslef crazy by the test date of

SEPT 29th ..... Sat morning I will test ......

O my ....................... I feel so at ease its strange .

A omen ...... ??

Yesterday , when i was talking withmy best friend from home ( denver) .

Me and Dh was at circuit city , and she called to tell me about her divorce , I went outside the sotre to talk to her , because i couldnt here her ..... she's 1500 miles away .... So , i was standing there talking to her and just looking into the sky it was about 7;30 pm just beganing to get dark the sky was wierd way like rain was coming , it had pink hughs in it , just pretty !!!

SO , all of a sudden i seen a falling star................ O my i was like wow i put down the phone to my side ( becuase lynn was just a talking ) and i wished :::::::: I cant say for what ,..... but im so sure anyone who reads this will figure it out . I contunied talking to her .... and my DH came out of the store , and i was like hold on lynn i have to tell dh something , i held the phone to where she could hear me also .....I told him he was like did you wish " heck ya i wished " ... and that was that ! I continued talked to my bff lynn ..... and hung up when we got home !

later , i was like wasnt that cool honey , he's like .. yee it was very neat !! I hope your WISH comes true !!! me too

CD 14 IUI DAY !!!!

Pic of The Sperm in the Cather thingy ready for the meeting of the EGG!!!

Well, just got home from our IUI .....
Went just fine alot of cramping this time .... But im ok, it's just a part of me getting my BFP!!
DH did great ...

his Pre wash 232 Million
We put back in : 96 million Im happy about that .
Progression was :

rapid

Normal Forms was 36%

Molitity was " 62%

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

So here we go the 2 WW

On Protreium 200mg daily for 12 day's

Come on BFFFFFPPPPPPPPPPP

Cd13

tomorrow is the BIG Day !!

i hope Dh little men are all happy and healthy !!! they Need to do there JOB!!!

they have plenty of target's ..... and Im happy about that ~~~

Well, my Dh does it again

Came home from work with a beutiful bouquet of Roses in Fall colors ...

I said what's the occasion .. he said it's NATIONAL WIFE APERICATION day Sunday and im just a little early !!! AHH he's so thoughtfull.....

I have the most LOVING Husband !!! I am so greatfull for him everyday !!!

The COST of a priceless BFP .....

This cycle will be my 2nd IUI /FEMERA /OVidrel My IUI's cost me out of pocket :

Cd 3 scan $115.00

Femera 10 pills 2.5 mg each $30.00

Cd 10 Scan $115.00

Cd 10 BW $75.00 E2 levels

HCG Shot $60.00 delivered to my home

IUI and Sperm washing $325.00

Prometrium 200mg vag , $30.00 _________________________________________________

grand Total ....

$720.00

If we get a BFP = PRICELESS

Cd 12 TRIGGER TONIGHT 8PM

Well, it's that day ! Hoping this med will kick all the mature follicles out of my little ovary's!!!

Im praying so hard this is out cycle .... GOD please let it be !

We went ahead and bd'd lastnight , so Dh's little men get 3 day's to RE-group !!!LOL They better be marching .... and have there smelling gear on this Sunday !!! We need all the help we can get !!! GO little men go !!

CD 11 ......

So here's the PLAN !!

Ovidrel Friday 14th @8pm

Dh -deposit at 8 am

ME - IUI @ 10am Sunday 16th

We go together , inthe 2 hr break we go to Krispy Krems !!

and just spend time thinking Postive

Dr , wanted to make sure we was going throught with IUI , Because i have 3 mature follicles , and he made sure His nurse told us the chance of mulitpies ...... I got to admit .... I was kinda freacked out yesterday after hearing the message .... theni talked with DH and he's like go for it !!!! Ok .................... we are !! I hope we get PG !! Dunno how many we are going to blessed with .. but i just want a healthy and happy Pregnancy !!!!

Cd 10 follicle Scan

Good News.... My Ovary's decided to wake up !!
right ovary :
16.3 mm
12.6 mm

Left Ovary :
16.3mm
12 mm
9 mm
16.3 mm

Hey , my nurse said to call emarc and see what my blood E2 Levels are , and see when i am to trigger ......

3:05 am

Just cant sleep ........ Cd 10 wonder what the US is going to show.....???

Well, i have been up i guesss i try to get some sleep ...... maybe it was the

starbucks white mocha, with 4 shots of expresso in it ....... really Dh brung me home

it at 8pm .... so maybe that's why i cant sleep ............................ ya think?

later ...................................

MY SOUL MATE !!! just thought's on a rainny day

It's raining cat's and dogs here in lake mary Fl this fine evening of the 11th of Sept .

Wow... I love my husband i really do , I am so glad we do everything together and that means
ttc our child . Im so glad he wants to be there at every apt with me , it would seem NOT right for him not to be there , after all it's his child also that we are TTC .
it's to cool when we are in the US room and he's asking the nurse ? about what's going on with my ovarys' ... and lining !!! AHHH i love him so much !!!! Im so glad he's willing to do anyhting and everything for me ... I am so spoiled !!! I dont want for anything !!! I have a none spending limit to anything i want , i have all the love from him ... every minute of every day !
He's my prince charming ..... thank you god !! I am so blessed in many way's .......

Well, im going to get off here and make sure his dinner is ready for him when he walks through our front door to our loving home..... He loves his glass of Ice tea fresh brewed of course !!!
tonight menu is : Honey Ham baked to perfection with a honey glaze , Scallopped Potatoes , and fresh Carrot's baked with brown sugar... O yummmm I love cooking for my husband , my only love , my LIFE !!

We just got in the mail a invite to a good friends wedding .... Oct 26th Friday at the
Tradewinds Island Grand ....http://www.tradewindsresort.com/
I think we are going to go down that thursday night , and then come home sat morning .....

Well, better get off here and pretty up for my hubby !! !MY love my life my SOUL MATE !!

CD 9 and im feeling the pain ..LOL

Well, i think my ovarys are working over time !!! My right one was having it's own party , and so the left one joined in .... lol

Tomorrow cd 10 scan ... im excited to see what shall come of the discomfort im in ......

not doing much ,............................ hanging out!

Cd 8

Well, it was a busy weekend .... I redone my fountain ....

It looked like this before ( the stone color ) then i painted it

this color . The finished project is pretty !!!

Ok , so back to TTC ... took my last dose of femera last night cd 7) . My ovarys are killing me

I thought it was just my right side , but my left is joining in on the fun !!! Im dying to know but have to wait till cd 10( wednesday at 8;30 ) to find out how much fun they have been having on my expense !!Well, hoping for more thanjust one follicle ...... maybe 2 would be nice !

Cd 6 4th day FEMERA

Well, it's the weekend ... .and femera is in over time !!!

O my ................. My right ovary is killing me , &right side of my back o my !!!
My left has a few pains , but nothing like my right !! GROW EGGS GROW !!!

going to paint the inside of my fountain ..... today !
the paint color is called " SOUTHERN SEA " really a pretty blue , '
kinda reminds me of KEY west waters !!
Dh and i went and bought everything i need, he's at work so
im going to be doing this sat project by myslef !.. O MY !!

Well, better go get started ... will post pic whenit's all done and
put infront of the home .
have a great day ..............................................

Got Meds ONTIME !!! yippppp

Well, fed Ex came with my meds ... yipppp finally ontime !

Well, next is my Cd 10 Follicle Check .....I think they are bringing me in one day early because of a follie was all ready 7,8 mm on cd 3 , so if they grow 1 -2mm daily by cd 10 that follicle should be 18 mm ... ( that's 2mm daily ) dunno though!! Only time will tell !!

ya know time ,... it seems that's all we have when trying to get pg, wait on this wait on that ... every little thing is waiting !!

O well, i guess a BFP is priceless!! No matter the wait

CD 5 3rd day of FEMERA

Good Morning ..... I took my femera last night and weird thing , i got a small upset stomach and my right ovary is killing me ummm hoping something is cooking !!! well more than one ! My meds are to be coming today!! lol ... Seriously i sure hope they have the address correct, i told them 3 times and the rep repeated it back to me 2 times !! SO we will see .. between 8 and 3pm .

O please , dont make me go through what i did last time ... O please !!!

Well, anyway's ....................... the Femera is working well on my right ovary , i feel something cooking !!! On my cd 3 scan there was allready a follicle that was 7.8 mm !! WOW

So, we will find out on Cd 10 at 8:30 apt ..... to check them ..................

Cd4 ~~2day of Femera

Doing great here .... Really i am , i have renewed faith once again ..
My mother is coming down next month Oct 16-20 , So hopefully we can share some
goodnews with her ..HOPING !!!! father isnt coming first day of deer season and he' allready had a cabin in western ks reserved with a few of family member's also.
My parent's are from Colorado , a little town out side of Denver .
well, that's where i was raised ..... i miss my SNOW ... O well
I wouldnt change a thing of where i live and what a wonderful husband i have !!!!

So ................ taking my wonder Femera ! Got a pretty bad headache from it , o well
if that's the only S/A from it , then so be it ! Hoping this is our month !
Praying alot again that everyhting is in great timing .....

Well, have to things ... bank, grocery store, walgreens .
later ......................

#2 IUI ... CD 3 Cyst check

Well, everything looks good, NO cyst ...YIPPPP
I allready have a follicle at 7.8 MM on my right side , there was one on my left but i cant for the life of me remember the size. She is bringing me back on CD 10 for Follicle scan.....
I told my nurse about the Progestrone Supp , burning me .... she is going to talk to Dr G and get back with me on that . She's faxing over the scripts to the Pharmacy ,.... hopefully they can get it to me on time , and the correct address!
No one has called me yet .... from the pharmacy tick tock
Well, anyway's ...................... I have hope for this cycle ... Like usual !! I wont give up !!!!
NEVER !!!!!!!!
Next apt : Sept 12th 8;30 am

#2 IUI Cd 2

Well, i called my RE have a apt for SCAN of ovarys to make sure there are no cyst pray !!! ther eare no cyst !!!
So .................... Onto to a new cycle .... We are not giving up !!! We are MrC and MrsC not quitter's ......................

AWAKE 1am .... AF is a wicked *****!!!!

It's 1am and im just a little crampyyyyy , i feel like shit, headache , my **** hurts and geesh why cant i just get pg !!

I am so upset over not being pg, I am crying inside and it hurts alot ! Every time i think of WHY and why not me i get more fustrated , it's been along road , i personally dunno how much more i can take of this TTC stuff. I mean month after month, Dr visit after Dr visit .... it's getting old faster than what i thought .... Dh is no help tonight, he just dont get it ... Im the one who'sbroken so it's like all my faught , he's never said that but i feeel that way ! I want so bad to be pg, im trying so hard and doing all the GOOD things in life for my body ...... the ? is when is it going to happen ... Im not getting any younger 36 and Dh is 41 ..... My lord we are going to be a older couple raising a teenager ... Im not scared i want this ... it's just WHEN !!!!! I pray alot .... to myself , i thank god for what i have and its so much !!! I am blessed to have the fmaily i do , my wonderful husband ,,,, and LOVE !!! I really am blessed...........................But geesh i would love a child with my husband ....................... Maybe it' will never happen , when do we say enough with the treatment .... ???? I asked Dh that ? he seemed to no thave any answer !!!! GO figure .....
Well it's 2 am and im just up ... i dont feel good and just feel like writing .... But im off to bed !
Have laundry to do tomorrow and i think i will put my water fountain out front tomorrow .... Dh was suppose to do that for me this weekend , but he got to busy with all the other stuff .... we just moved in adn he's had alot to do!!!!
SO ....................... IM calling the RE's office tomorrow and getting a Cd 3 scan for Sept5 .... HOPEFULLY NO CYST !!!!!! We will see .............................. GOODNIGHT all my little fertility friends .... and angels and who ever reads this blog of my ramblings !!
( ps if there 's anything typed wrong sorry , in the dark in this early am session of the BLOG )
NIGHT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!until tomorrrow !!!!!!!!
BABY DUST TO ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

Sept 3rd ...Cycle #2 IUI/Femera/Ovidrel

Well, first day of AF..... called RE's office gone till tomorrow !

Well, here we go again ....

New CYCLE ....

waiting on AF currently ....
Cd 3 scan ...
then All ok femera 5 mg for Cd 3 -7
Cd 11 Scan for Follie Check ....
then hcg shot ...
then IUI so the same ol's game ...
Hoping and Praying this is my cycle !!!
like usual !!!

14DPIUI Sunday Sept 2nd

test this AM with FMU and Digital , like i have been telling DH im not pg , well sure enough .... NOT PREGNANT came up and he said " that's not correct" over and over , i went back to bed and he finally relized it's true ...... He like how can that not happen with 144 million sperm ..... I told him it's science .... You just have to keep trying unitl ou get it right !!
So , ladies thanks for all your support !!! :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: Even though FF has my test day as tomorrow , It ended today for me .
I will call my RE office and tell them .... stop my progestrone supp adn began a new cycle with renewed faith !

Sept 1st 13dpIUI

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" and "Relax, Relate, Release

another BFN for me this am in IC .....o well Dh is still holding out hope !
He's alway's so hopeful .....

Well, we are going to DAytona Beach tonight to watch there firworks over the
ocean . It will be nice ...... to relax .

12doIUI

Well, another BFN on a FRER today.... Im done !!!!
Im Not Pg and im going to mentally prepare myself for a new cycle ....
and things in my life .... It's like my time is being comsumed by TTC
Well, after i take that Digital and prove to my husband that im NOT
PG then im headed straight to the liquor store and buy ONE Budweiser select
come home freeze it .... until it's so ice cold !!! Then im going to pack things for the beach !!!!
We are going to the beach sunday ............... taking my tanning chair , packing a lunch and headed to daytona !!!!!!!!! I need to free my mind .................. from this TTC !!

Then monday i call the RE and set a apt for a Cycle day 3 scan .... they are going to have to put me on a different progestorne, after i put it in about 20 minutes it starts to burn reallllllly bad !!
I lay there and toss and turn until it goes away about 30minutes later .... but still burns up inside my ************~~~~ So dunno what other kind they have but i have toughed this cycle out with them ..................NO MORE after I do that digital sunday FMU !!!!

Well, we have new furniture coming today ( it better be ) for the formal living room ..........
Dryer is on the brink ...................... and im not PG !! boy my life is falling apart !!!
lol lol lol litterly in front of my face ......................

nice walk in the park .... CRY CRY

I just got back from the PARK... I walked and walked and cryed and cryed talked to the birds , and trees and hot SUN , it seems like no one answered me either !! dugh i was bymyself !! It felt good just to cry and not have to answer to no one what's wrong ... even though there was this older couple that over heard me talking to myself while i was sitting on a bench and they walked by .... the older lady looked at me and said with the sweetest voice like a angel was speaking so soft and gentle " it will be Ok let time heal all wounds and answer all prayer's " then she just continued walking with her husband...I thought wow .... My eyes dryed up and i began to have faith once again !!! .... I got up from that bench a few minutes later and was ready to face the world again !!( thanks to that lady i will never ever see again she gave my faith back to me ) ~~~~~~~~

11DOIUI ..... this sucks

BFN = FRER / 11dpoIUI

Im out ................... Onto next cycle !!
GOD WHEN THIS EVER END !!!
Im going to go cry my self a pond today!!!!

My offical test date is Sunday Sep 2nd
will test with digital just to make sure before i start the next cycle
GOD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> ME !!!!!!!!!

10 DPIUI

Well, i had a dip yesterday and tested with FMU and SMU and both BFN !!!

I better just face it ... im not pg, im so crying im so hurt inside , my Dh has no clue that i have
been testing , he's so like you are pg everytime i turn around....

he's home today so i have to put on a happy face ...GRRRR and pretend all is ok
with the MY WORLD !
I know he's going to be so disapointed when he see's a bfn on his so called test date :
Sept 2nd my mother' s Bday.. O my !!

I feel like giving up , this is taking a toll on me ..... everymonth a BFN !!
But some how some way i muster up the way to do another cycle ..... GRRRRR
I hate my body and im so upset !!!
I have to get off here and ctoping crying before Dh get's home from starbucks with my coffee....sent him there so i could test !
later.................................

9DOIUI

(9 dpoIUI today). Its not like AF cramps which is usually a dull pain in my back, but sharp, stabbing, prickly pains where my uterus is-in the front. Last night I felt some pains go from where the top of my uterus is on my right side and the pain shot down my pubic/vagina area. I’ve been feeling tons of pressure too.Sooner or later I will find out the truth.

dunno what to think , i was laying in bed after my shower relaxing and all of the sudden , out of no where was this pain .......... it was def in my uterus and about right below my belly button .... dunno Dh seems to think it's the little one getting all snugged in .... for the 9 month's as he put it !
I took a hpt his am and swear i see a line, but after about 30 minutes im sure it's a evap line darn internet cheapies !!

Well...................... going to go make some chicken salad for supper , YUM YUM
dh is working late tonight , nothing really going on .............................. expect scanning FF for anything interesting ! My dogs are being lazy today .... under my feet .... O my !!

I dont think i test for a day or so .......................... ***IF *** that was implantaion then it will take on average 2 -3 day's before hcg is built up in my system ....
later ...............................

8DOIUI .,.... waiting waiting

Well,.................. dunno much today .!

I really am not trying to get excited , it's hard .....

have things to do .... whoohooohoo MONDAY !!
wow ..............................

7DPIUI...

Well, it's Sunday 7DPIUI.................. I have let DH have all my hpt 's and $ and bank card !!( so i dont go buy some while he's at work ..LOLi think im addicted to them )
So i wont test ... until my test day!!!Sept 2nd

Doing things with Dh today .... be back later !!

BTW;;;; the wait is going to drive me crazy! O well ..................

8DPT & 6DPIUI

Ok listen up !!!!, my trigger is gone 8DPTrigger .... 3 bfn's today !! With FMU, SMU and 2;30 when i test the strongest is with afternoon urine . SO that's great .... Im not feeling to good about this cycle even though i have had some cramping off and on, just a tab bit ..... and im really sleepy all the time , it could just be the progestrone supp.... O well !
i just called dh and told him to find a good mexican rest, we have a friend has one , but he's clear out in Clearmont , about 30 min awayfrom us in lake mary ...... So , he's on that i want MEXICAN FOOD !!!I want fresh mexican food .... good home made stuff , not nasty tacobell .... or other's that came to be authenic !!!

Well, it's saturday and i have took a nap and cleaned the wood floors today ! wow i better settle down ... ( hense the sarciasam ) ~~~~

I think im going to give all my hpt to dh until im 10 DPIUI ..... sounds like a paln just has i was writing that i was like about to have a panic attack !! LOL LOL .... im like a addict with them ...... maybe just maybe they will be nice to me this cycle , so i dont have to buy no more ... and giv eme my LONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG awaited BFP !!!!
Until later ...................................

Feeling low

Well, ya know ladies i feel like this isnt my month ... I just dont FEEL anything at all
I am bitchy , and full feeling when i eat something kinda like AF is going to come early ...
Im 5 dpoIUI and it sucks to think we have to do this another month , im sick of tired of trying ,
but for some reason i just cant give up .... even though AF will come some how i muster up the
freackin energy to do this again ..... it's not the $$$ , it's the emoitionl toll it's taking on me. Im usually upbeat and ready for anything , but im sitting here crying looking outside it's about to rain and Im all alone and i just am so sick of waiting fo rmy turn ... there are so many woman out there that thinks 6 month's is a long time to get pg !! Try 1757 day's of this ... waiting game !
I just cant seem to climb out of this pitty hole for myself , i did laundry today and listened to my fav CD ... Words of Worship , but soon i just turned that OFF!....
O well ........................ I think i go take a shower yea 6 pm at night toget ready for bed ! yea i am so pitty full ..... it's amazing my dogs just look at me when i cry , i know my baby girl know's her momma is hurting .... BUT somehow i will dry my tears and be ok before my wonderful husband comes through that door in about 2 hr's ...... at least i have that anmount of time to cry my eyes out ..... i should be ok !! Well ........ later

5DPIUI & 7DPTIGGER SHOT

Ok..... this is getting unnearving ....5DPIUI & 7DPTIGGER SHOT

I test with FMU and it looks like my trigger shot is gone ...
then i test with smu 2 hr's later ( no drinking) and the line is darker
Then i goto walgreens and change over my script's and maybe drink 2 drink's of greentea
and i come home so that's 3mu and test and the line is darker !
i just wish the trigger would leave already!!!

O well.................. We have the baby bed ! O my ......
Dunno , im just so excited ..... doing laundry today!
And that's about all ...... wow im exciting
Its hot OUTSIDE in Florida this time of yr .... i cant stand even being out there ...

that's about all folks ... to anyone who cares to read this .... jibber jabber ...

A waiting game ...

Geesh , this is all i seem to be doing waiting !
In a way i think ... it's going to be worth it , then i get down and think , i havent gotten pg in the last 4 yr's and 8 months why now ??

Well, you have to love men............ My hubby is so for sure i am PG
in away , im so hoping he's correct ... butthen that thought of the above thought
kicks in .............. nay im not he's setting his self up for a great disopointment !!!

OOOO well.................... today im 6day's past trigger and i think it's almost gone .... very veryvery faint line on the hpt !
and Im 4 DPO .... my how time is moving like a snail , and im keeping busy to !
Last night me and DH hung pictures of the fmaily , hismom and dad , and our wedding photos...they look so nice on the big wall out in the Living room ... We ordered
new funriture for that room also .... It's not meant to be used !
We have that furniture in the Family room ....... where the tv is ..............

O i also have a pic of the 144 million sperm sitting and waiting in the cather .... i took the pic with Dh;s phone i have to wait to see how to down load it onto my computer ...... from the phone im not the computer savvy yet !
Well.......................................... Im off to get dressed.!

3DPO and 5dpt

So..... i was eating pinapple this am for breakfast and drinking my water ......
My wonderful Dh say's " healthy eating alway's for the baby"
I told him not to get his hopes up just yet, just have faith!!
pray , pray and pray more !!!

We are going out today just to do some errans , and goof a little
I love our new home , if i could ever learn how to post pics on this blog i
will show it off....

later................... By the way i had a dream last night i had a pregancy test running
around asking everyone if they see the lines...... and it was a digital that said PG~~~
dugh ...................just hope my dream is coming true soon!

For all my TTc friends

Well, i am so excited for the chance to become a MOMMY and DADDY

I wonder why and how in the world have i made it this long, my life since meting my wonderful husband has taken alot of turns , first moving to FL almost 3 yr's ago... that was such a change !
I havent been home to visit no one since, it's kinda scary to go ..... but maybe if we become PG , then we will take a trip home !! just maybe !
I dont really care if i go though that's bad, my mom and dad is there along with my sister, and one bro....... I talk to them but not much ! O well ....... life goes on!

Ttc..... This road has been long and winding ..... it's seems never ending ! We just did our ever first IUI and im so excited to see if we get our BFP from it , with great hope adn pray my faith with the lord is the only thing keeping me going !!!
I know he has it all undercontrol , but geesh ... hurry up allready im 36 and dh is 41 we need to get pg soon , or we are going to be OLD and gray raising our child !Because i will not give up !!!!
until then...........................
Im 4day's past trigger ( hcg)
and 2 dpo past IUI ..... just pray !!!

~~#1 cycle of ... IUI/Femera/Ovidrel ~~ ~144 million Post wash !!WOW !! I *WILL* be PG this cycle , I will be due on DH's Bday~~~

first post

WOW .... this is to cool !
Well, this will be about TTC our child , we currently are waiting in the 2ww, did a IUI on Sunday 19th , and with 144 million Post wash sperm , im hoping and praying that we get pg !!!