12doIUI

Well, another BFN on a FRER today.... Im done !!!!
Im Not Pg and im going to mentally prepare myself for a new cycle ....
and things in my life .... It's like my time is being comsumed by TTC
Well, after i take that Digital and prove to my husband that im NOT
PG then im headed straight to the liquor store and buy ONE Budweiser select
come home freeze it .... until it's so ice cold !!! Then im going to pack things for the beach !!!!
We are going to the beach sunday ............... taking my tanning chair , packing a lunch and headed to daytona !!!!!!!!! I need to free my mind .................. from this TTC !!

Then monday i call the RE and set a apt for a Cycle day 3 scan .... they are going to have to put me on a different progestorne, after i put it in about 20 minutes it starts to burn reallllllly bad !!
I lay there and toss and turn until it goes away about 30minutes later .... but still burns up inside my ************~~~~ So dunno what other kind they have but i have toughed this cycle out with them ..................NO MORE after I do that digital sunday FMU !!!!

Well, we have new furniture coming today ( it better be ) for the formal living room ..........
Dryer is on the brink ...................... and im not PG !! boy my life is falling apart !!!
lol lol lol litterly in front of my face ......................

nice walk in the park .... CRY CRY

I just got back from the PARK... I walked and walked and cryed and cryed talked to the birds , and trees and hot SUN , it seems like no one answered me either !! dugh i was bymyself !! It felt good just to cry and not have to answer to no one what's wrong ... even though there was this older couple that over heard me talking to myself while i was sitting on a bench and they walked by .... the older lady looked at me and said with the sweetest voice like a angel was speaking so soft and gentle " it will be Ok let time heal all wounds and answer all prayer's " then she just continued walking with her husband...I thought wow .... My eyes dryed up and i began to have faith once again !!! .... I got up from that bench a few minutes later and was ready to face the world again !!( thanks to that lady i will never ever see again she gave my faith back to me ) ~~~~~~~~

11DOIUI ..... this sucks

BFN = FRER / 11dpoIUI

Im out ................... Onto next cycle !!
GOD WHEN THIS EVER END !!!
Im going to go cry my self a pond today!!!!

My offical test date is Sunday Sep 2nd
will test with digital just to make sure before i start the next cycle
GOD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> ME !!!!!!!!!

10 DPIUI

Well, i had a dip yesterday and tested with FMU and SMU and both BFN !!!

I better just face it ... im not pg, im so crying im so hurt inside , my Dh has no clue that i have
been testing , he's so like you are pg everytime i turn around....

he's home today so i have to put on a happy face ...GRRRR and pretend all is ok
with the MY WORLD !
I know he's going to be so disapointed when he see's a bfn on his so called test date :
Sept 2nd my mother' s Bday.. O my !!

I feel like giving up , this is taking a toll on me ..... everymonth a BFN !!
But some how some way i muster up the way to do another cycle ..... GRRRRR
I hate my body and im so upset !!!
I have to get off here and ctoping crying before Dh get's home from starbucks with my coffee....sent him there so i could test !
later.................................

9DOIUI

(9 dpoIUI today). Its not like AF cramps which is usually a dull pain in my back, but sharp, stabbing, prickly pains where my uterus is-in the front. Last night I felt some pains go from where the top of my uterus is on my right side and the pain shot down my pubic/vagina area. I’ve been feeling tons of pressure too.Sooner or later I will find out the truth.

dunno what to think , i was laying in bed after my shower relaxing and all of the sudden , out of no where was this pain .......... it was def in my uterus and about right below my belly button .... dunno Dh seems to think it's the little one getting all snugged in .... for the 9 month's as he put it !
I took a hpt his am and swear i see a line, but after about 30 minutes im sure it's a evap line darn internet cheapies !!

Well...................... going to go make some chicken salad for supper , YUM YUM
dh is working late tonight , nothing really going on .............................. expect scanning FF for anything interesting ! My dogs are being lazy today .... under my feet .... O my !!

I dont think i test for a day or so .......................... ***IF *** that was implantaion then it will take on average 2 -3 day's before hcg is built up in my system ....
later ...............................

8DOIUI .,.... waiting waiting

Well,.................. dunno much today .!

I really am not trying to get excited , it's hard .....

have things to do .... whoohooohoo MONDAY !!
wow ..............................

7DPIUI...

Well, it's Sunday 7DPIUI.................. I have let DH have all my hpt 's and $ and bank card !!( so i dont go buy some while he's at work ..LOLi think im addicted to them )
So i wont test ... until my test day!!!Sept 2nd

Doing things with Dh today .... be back later !!

BTW;;;; the wait is going to drive me crazy! O well ..................

8DPT & 6DPIUI

Ok listen up !!!!, my trigger is gone 8DPTrigger .... 3 bfn's today !! With FMU, SMU and 2;30 when i test the strongest is with afternoon urine . SO that's great .... Im not feeling to good about this cycle even though i have had some cramping off and on, just a tab bit ..... and im really sleepy all the time , it could just be the progestrone supp.... O well !
i just called dh and told him to find a good mexican rest, we have a friend has one , but he's clear out in Clearmont , about 30 min awayfrom us in lake mary ...... So , he's on that i want MEXICAN FOOD !!!I want fresh mexican food .... good home made stuff , not nasty tacobell .... or other's that came to be authenic !!!

Well, it's saturday and i have took a nap and cleaned the wood floors today ! wow i better settle down ... ( hense the sarciasam ) ~~~~

I think im going to give all my hpt to dh until im 10 DPIUI ..... sounds like a paln just has i was writing that i was like about to have a panic attack !! LOL LOL .... im like a addict with them ...... maybe just maybe they will be nice to me this cycle , so i dont have to buy no more ... and giv eme my LONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG awaited BFP !!!!
Until later ...................................

Feeling low

Well, ya know ladies i feel like this isnt my month ... I just dont FEEL anything at all
I am bitchy , and full feeling when i eat something kinda like AF is going to come early ...
Im 5 dpoIUI and it sucks to think we have to do this another month , im sick of tired of trying ,
but for some reason i just cant give up .... even though AF will come some how i muster up the
freackin energy to do this again ..... it's not the $$$ , it's the emoitionl toll it's taking on me. Im usually upbeat and ready for anything , but im sitting here crying looking outside it's about to rain and Im all alone and i just am so sick of waiting fo rmy turn ... there are so many woman out there that thinks 6 month's is a long time to get pg !! Try 1757 day's of this ... waiting game !
I just cant seem to climb out of this pitty hole for myself , i did laundry today and listened to my fav CD ... Words of Worship , but soon i just turned that OFF!....
O well ........................ I think i go take a shower yea 6 pm at night toget ready for bed ! yea i am so pitty full ..... it's amazing my dogs just look at me when i cry , i know my baby girl know's her momma is hurting .... BUT somehow i will dry my tears and be ok before my wonderful husband comes through that door in about 2 hr's ...... at least i have that anmount of time to cry my eyes out ..... i should be ok !! Well ........ later

5DPIUI & 7DPTIGGER SHOT

Ok..... this is getting unnearving ....5DPIUI & 7DPTIGGER SHOT

I test with FMU and it looks like my trigger shot is gone ...
then i test with smu 2 hr's later ( no drinking) and the line is darker
Then i goto walgreens and change over my script's and maybe drink 2 drink's of greentea
and i come home so that's 3mu and test and the line is darker !
i just wish the trigger would leave already!!!

O well.................. We have the baby bed ! O my ......
Dunno , im just so excited ..... doing laundry today!
And that's about all ...... wow im exciting
Its hot OUTSIDE in Florida this time of yr .... i cant stand even being out there ...

that's about all folks ... to anyone who cares to read this .... jibber jabber ...

A waiting game ...

Geesh , this is all i seem to be doing waiting !
In a way i think ... it's going to be worth it , then i get down and think , i havent gotten pg in the last 4 yr's and 8 months why now ??

Well, you have to love men............ My hubby is so for sure i am PG
in away , im so hoping he's correct ... butthen that thought of the above thought
kicks in .............. nay im not he's setting his self up for a great disopointment !!!

OOOO well.................... today im 6day's past trigger and i think it's almost gone .... very veryvery faint line on the hpt !
and Im 4 DPO .... my how time is moving like a snail , and im keeping busy to !
Last night me and DH hung pictures of the fmaily , hismom and dad , and our wedding photos...they look so nice on the big wall out in the Living room ... We ordered
new funriture for that room also .... It's not meant to be used !
We have that furniture in the Family room ....... where the tv is ..............

O i also have a pic of the 144 million sperm sitting and waiting in the cather .... i took the pic with Dh;s phone i have to wait to see how to down load it onto my computer ...... from the phone im not the computer savvy yet !
Well.......................................... Im off to get dressed.!

3DPO and 5dpt

So..... i was eating pinapple this am for breakfast and drinking my water ......
My wonderful Dh say's " healthy eating alway's for the baby"
I told him not to get his hopes up just yet, just have faith!!
pray , pray and pray more !!!

We are going out today just to do some errans , and goof a little
I love our new home , if i could ever learn how to post pics on this blog i
will show it off....

later................... By the way i had a dream last night i had a pregancy test running
around asking everyone if they see the lines...... and it was a digital that said PG~~~
dugh ...................just hope my dream is coming true soon!

For all my TTc friends

Well, i am so excited for the chance to become a MOMMY and DADDY

I wonder why and how in the world have i made it this long, my life since meting my wonderful husband has taken alot of turns , first moving to FL almost 3 yr's ago... that was such a change !
I havent been home to visit no one since, it's kinda scary to go ..... but maybe if we become PG , then we will take a trip home !! just maybe !
I dont really care if i go though that's bad, my mom and dad is there along with my sister, and one bro....... I talk to them but not much ! O well ....... life goes on!

Ttc..... This road has been long and winding ..... it's seems never ending ! We just did our ever first IUI and im so excited to see if we get our BFP from it , with great hope adn pray my faith with the lord is the only thing keeping me going !!!
I know he has it all undercontrol , but geesh ... hurry up allready im 36 and dh is 41 we need to get pg soon , or we are going to be OLD and gray raising our child !Because i will not give up !!!!
until then...........................
Im 4day's past trigger ( hcg)
and 2 dpo past IUI ..... just pray !!!

~~#1 cycle of ... IUI/Femera/Ovidrel ~~ ~144 million Post wash !!WOW !! I *WILL* be PG this cycle , I will be due on DH's Bday~~~

first post

WOW .... this is to cool !
Well, this will be about TTC our child , we currently are waiting in the 2ww, did a IUI on Sunday 19th , and with 144 million Post wash sperm , im hoping and praying that we get pg !!!